In 2007 I lost my fiance to a drunk driver. I had never experienced a loss like this and I wasn’t sure how to cope and grieve. I grew up in church. I accepted Christ in my heart at 7 years old. But when Shane died, I felt betrayed and angry at God. So I turned my back and walked away from Him. I turned to a life of drugs, alcohol, self harming and sex. To try and fill that emptiness and pain that I was feeling. I had 4 miscarriages. I attempted suicide several times with no luck. Every time I should have died, God spared me. I couldn’t understand why He wouldn’t just let me die. But one day 7 years later as I sit recovering from my last suicide attempt, my eyes were opened in a way they never had been before. All those years all I saw was me and my pain. I didn’t see my family and friends that I had hurt along the way. I remember that day like it was yesterday. It’s been 3 years. God opened my eyes and showed me, not only the love from my family but His unconditional, perfect, pure love. I have a beautiful daughter now, who just turned 2 and I’m starting my new career next week. I thank God everyday for sparing me one more time and for opening my eyes and showing me His love.