In April 2011 i was diagnosed with a Chronic Skin Disease Called Hidradenitis Suppurativa. It is very painful,debilitating, causes deformity, depression and a lot of other things. It is a disease that isn’t known and doesn’t have much awareness or study, So there is no known cure for. A lot of people who have this disease tend to keep to themselves because it may seem embarrassing, Hidradenitis suppurativa (HS) is a chronic skin disease. It can occur in one or multiple areas of your body. HS usually develops in areas that are skin to skin contact. The abscesses you get cause long-term skin inflammation and can be very painful. I was a very active person and very outgoing. But Hs changed me. Throughout the years i had to stop working. I couldn’t do the things that i loved doing. I felt like my life was limited. my wounds caused by the abscesses on my arms.. left my arms without feeling, i couldn’t move my arms much and was in horrible pain 24/7. i stopped going out. i didn’t feel like talking to anyone. i basically fell into depression even though people that would see me would think that i was fine. They had no idea that i suffered in silence. Having this disease has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me. especially because of my self image. i loved dressing nice and wearing perfumes, having my hair done. you know as all women do. I got to a point that i couldn’t walk much. and every part of my body hurt. i decided to reach out to others and tell them what was going on. Because i felt that i couldn’t keep it to myself any longer because it was visible. My body posture changed. i started walking like an old woman i didn’t even have the strength to get up from bed. the only thing i would wear was sweat pants and a t shirt and i had my hair up in a bun. i felt ugly. i felt useless. helpless. unworthy, i was angry i think i had a lot of other emotions as well. i went to so many doctors and no one knew what to do with me. They ran a lot of test on me. Basically i was their guinea pig. my arms got so bad that they were rotting and the drainage from the wounds smelled like rotten meat. i had to get surgery because i had no choice at that point and i was scared of losing my arms. i had three surgeries done both arms. my right arm twice. it took me almost two years to recover from both surgeries, then i got hs in other parts of my body which made everything worse. i couldn’t sit, walk or even lay down. my mother had to dress me. help shower me, do my hair, basically do everything for me. i had a kit with bandages, tape, ointment, diapers, and a lot of other things. not only was it bad having hs it cost a lot of money too because i had to buy my medical supplies over 50 dollars a month just on that alone. then i didn’t like to go out it was uncomfortable for me. having your wounds drain while your out and having your clothes get dirty and stained and the horrible smell from it. is embarrassing. i stayed home for almost 3 years i only went out when i had to . People that said that they were going to be there for me weren’t. i felt alone even though i had my family with me through it all. Even though i felt like giving up so many times. I never gave up and had faith in God. He kept me going He gave me strength (2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is sufficient for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness). Because if it was for me alone i couldn’t have dealt with this i wouldn’t be here. Thank God An Hs clinic opened in my hospital. It was God sent. I thank Him that he led me to these wonderful doctors that have helped me. If it wasn’t for God i wouldn’t be how i am right now. I Praise Him and Worship Him. If it wasn’t for him i would be in bed wasting my life away like before. Now because of His Grace and Mercy i walk and i’m pain free. i didn’t know what it felt like to not feel pain for i dealt with it for 4 yrs. I am now happy and healthier and even though i go through things at times and still get medication i keep my faith and trust in the Lord and i leave it all in his hands. I’ll endure anything i have to if its all for His purpose. No matter what you’re going through.. even if it seems like nothing good will come from it. Cling to God. Everything Happens for a reason. You may not know the reason right now. But trust and believe that at the end you’ll come out better than before. Don’t give up.