He sees all the struggles I have gone through, and I will continue to go through, but never once has He ever turned His back on me. When I have run out of hope, He makes sure I see that there is still hope. In 2002 my oldest son got sick suddenly, he almost died that day. God helped me with that. My son needed a new heart soon. I did not have a good relationship with god at that time. I went to the chapel in the hospital and first I begged God to take me and not my 14 year old son. I did not feel anything. For 3 days we were there fighting to keep my son alive until we could find a new heart. I went back to the chapel and I cried out to god “where are you!!!” I need you so much right now. I was the only person in there and I heard “just ask me”, so I looked around for someone and no one was there. I cried “where are you!!!!” and it felt like someone nudged me, “I am here and have been”. The new heart my son received gave me 9 more years with him. Now he is in heaven and he is not in pain anymore. He is not sick and suffering anymore. I have never told anyone this because I thought they would not believe me. Thank you.